So we just got back from a trip to Florida. Me & Chuck, his parents, his sister Tracy, and her friend Brown. We had a good time on the beach, in the ocean, riding 4 wheelers, going to lighthouses, playing mini golf, eating eating eating, and relaxing a little.

Now it's back to the grind at Pizza Plus. I have been there over a year now, but officially full time almost 4 months. Its low stress and a good way to learn more about Accounting.

The next decision is if/when to go back to grad school. I'm not sure if I'm up for it yet... not sure if I really need it, if i really want to pay for it, what exactly I want to do with the rest of my life etc.

Chuck and I are moving back in together at the Race Day Condos. Its a neat little place with a pool, hot tub, and clubhouse. Its nice to have your own place to retreat to. You can have quiet time whenever you want! At least for now when there are no kids around. I love kids... but they aren't really me. I have a lot I want to do with my life and I want to share it with someone, but I feel like kids would hold me back. That's just me though. Its a tough decision and maybe it will change but probably not any time soon.

Right now I am still dealing with the loss of my best (girl) friend Veronica. She passed away unexpectedly, and for no apparent reason so far. It was so sudden ... she was just 22. She had so much life to live. It's very difficult to think that she will never share life's experiences with me. We were a lot alike and could really relate and understand each other. I always wanted her to be in my wedding.. I think that is hard to deal with.
It has nothing to do with marriage but I feel like why get married at all? I have few people to invite, or even make up the wedding 'party.' So many friends have gotten married and already seem to be falling apart. There is no need to rush into it.

Finances are a big deal lately too. I make pretty good money for a recent college grad, and am thankful for a job at all! But marriage and kids and getting a house are all so overwhelming on the finances. I want to travel, have fun with what I have earned. Not throw it away. Call me selfish- it won't be the first time I have heard it.

There are many conflicts in my head, family, money, future, work... who knows what will happen. I am trying to go with it but I have always loved a plan, and structure. It keeps me in line. Wandering along just gets you in trouble and that's the last thing i need any more.